"...“but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him."
-- John 9:3
I have (hopefully) come to the end of my writing hiatus. I have been debating in my head whether or not to put down this blog and abandon all hopes in wishing that my words will somehow touch another life. But I guess God has a different plan for me, and here I am writing again. Dry in my heart as I am right now, I am praying for the knowledge, wisdom and strength for me to do what I believe is right.
The verse was read today in our office daily devotions and it sparked all sorts of memories for me. On my journey so far and the people that I have in my life right now. Time and time again, God has proven to me that my plans are small and futile compared to the plans that He has for me. He has shown me that whatever it is that is happening right now is just a snippet in time and that it will serve His mighty purpose in the years to come.
Looking back, I have never wanted a career in computer science, stemming from the fact that I was not good in math, and I had a passion for writing. I never imagined myself being a speaker in front of a crowd because I was a very shy girl and was fearful of being judged. I never believed that I would be someone that God would use in His great plan...but really, He might have been amused watching me struggle with these thoughts, knowing that I was just at the beginning of my journey with Him.
One day, a friend approached me and testified on how my life experience and my decisions in particular situations gave her the courage and the strength to carry her through a similar predicament. She uttered the words "I honor you..." to me and my first reaction was "no...you shouldn't say that..." and I meant it not because I wanted her to honor me more but I told her "praise God because He was my strength and inspiration. He was the one who kept me going...". When I got home and I reflected on the day, I thanked God because it took Him a couple of years to reveal to me the purpose of my struggles and the purpose of me sharing to other people. It is to show how great God can be in our lives, if only we let Him do His work in us.
As Paul said to the Philippians:
"And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns." -- Philippians 1:6
We are all works in progress, undergoing God's specialized process so that in the end people will see His glory in how He has worked in our lives.
Father God, we thank You for always working in us and through our loved ones. We pray that you give us the patience and humility to submit ourselves to Your perfect plan. We might not always appreciate Your process but still be with us during the times when we feel like giving up, knowing that all You have for us are things that are good and are for Your glory. This we ask in Jesus' name, Amen.
